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Dork!Toothless in HTTYD 2
I’ve always been a codependent person. And just like you want me to accept that you’re who you are, I need you to accept that this is what I am, and it’s not something that’s going to change. I’ve only ever had one or 2 friends at a time my whole life. I just do better when I’ve got that one person I know I can count on. And when I’ve got that person I don’t really want to be with anyone else. That one connection is all I need. And while I may go hang out with other people, they aren’t going to have that connection with me the way that one person does. I just don’t work that way. I may open up a bit but when it really comes down to it, I only truly ever feel comfortable with that one person. And right now you’re that person. So yeah, while you’re away you tell me to go spend time with people and I may do that or I may just hang around and veg out or I may go wander in the woods alone but the way that I deal with you not being there is my thing. And you may think it’s good for me to go out with friends to distract myself but in the long run it just makes me feel lonely. Because I’ve only got that connection with you. These other people while important in my life are just dim stars while you’re the sun. And maybe that seems weird to someone like you who has a lot of connections and enjoys being around a lot of people but to me, you’re enough. So when you’re not around it feels like a piece of me is missing and in a way that’s true because you are one of the few soul mates I’ve had in this life. And I’ve only ever had a handful so far. And sadly I’ve lost those connections or they’ve changed as circumstances have changed but with you it’s different from the others because yeah they challenged me and made me question myself and want to better myself but because we both feed off each others feelings it’s deeper with you. I’ve never had that connection with another empath before and I’ve never known anyone like you before. And I don’t want to lose that so I get scared sometimes when you’re not here and I can’t help that. And because of this being a situation I’m not used to or completely ok with I do tend to ask for reassurance more than I should but it’s just because I let my fears get the best of me sometimes and sometimes I just need to hear and know that you love me and you’re not going anywhere. And I know I’m a huge pain in the ass most of the time and I say shit I don’t mean when I’m hurt but I truly love you more than I’ve loved anyone because the connection I have with you is deeper than I’ve had with anyone else and I just need you to understand that this is who I am and all I ask is that you respect that I need to be around you more than anyone else and if you need space to breathe and time to yourself I understand that too but in order for this to work we need to compromise on that. And I know you’ve been sacrificing a lot of time to be with me and that means a lot to me because it means you understand that I need time with you but I also don’t want you to feel overwhelmed so that’s why I ask you when you need to go do your thing to just let me know when and for how long so I can prepare myself mentally for the time apart because it is hard for me, even when I’m the one who needs space cause I feel overwhelmed sometimes I still think about you and miss you even if I’m mad at you over something stupid it doesn’t matter what it is because in the long run my love for you is deeper than all the drama and bullshit that is usually my doing because I’m dealing with a situation I’ve never been put in before and I’m still trying to figure out how to work with the feelings of jealousy and hurt and fear that I have because I’m insecure and deeply in love with someone who’s also in love with someone else and that feeds on my insecurities and makes me really scared of losing you. So whenever I start being mean or get clingy or whatever just remember that I’m an insecure little butt who loves you very much and just gets really overwhelmed and scared sometimes and that mean stuff I may say just stems from fear and hurt and confusion of being in this situation and none of it is your fault.
"That’s here. That’s home. That’s us. On it everyone you love, everyone you know, everyone you ever heard of, every human being who ever was, lived out their lives. The aggregate of our joy and suffering, thousands of confident religions, ideologies, and economic doctrines, every hunter and forager, every hero and coward, every creator and destroyer of civilization, every king and peasant, every young couple in love, every mother and father, hopeful child, inventor and explorer, every teacher of morals, every corrupt politician, every “superstar”, every “supreme leader”, every saint and sinner in the history of our species lived there - on a mote of dust suspended in a sunbeam" - Carl Sagan.
do you ever get in one of those moods where you’re like feeling okay but you’re really sad at the same time and you just want to talk to someone and make them hug you but you feel annoying so you kind of just sit there being really sad
Now available in my shop! My Neighbor Totoro sculpture! https://www.etsy.com/listing/195829558/totoro-sculpture-decoration-decor